Thursday, April 2, 2009
♥ Surprised .. But ..
Yo bloggie! -waves-
How are you today? For me lethargic as usual.. due to lack of sleep and those stupid awful abrupt pains i'm having. It's quite busy at work today, surprisingly there seems to be quite a number of customers today and i'm somewhat that the shop isn't that desserted like yesterday and the day before.
Played audition to kill time as usual and to hang out with -=SaiClan=- members. It's been so long ever since i've gone on an outing with them and tomorrow there will be an outing at DB mrt station 7.30pm to have a quick dinner and to discuss issues about stuffs happening in the guild. Being one of the old birds in the guild and because there's quite alot of conflicts happening within the guild itself, i have actually been invited to settle the disputes between some of the members along with the guild master and assistants. Should i turn up? I guess i should.. afterall it's been so long since i've last participated in the events within the guild. Kor, da sao , st , izuizu, dodo , dk and sy will be there.. ahh all the long lost classmates.. A reunion indeed. Wonder how's everyone's doing.. Tomorrow i'll be able to find out..
I didn't think that shawn will actually remember that my purse is already too old and ugly to use. It used to be green when i first bought it. But now it turned to algae green and it's not that attractive and nice to carry around with me. The purse which he bought was totally adorable and i liked it alot. It's brown with sketches of teddy bears and it's 100% cute. It's a lil bigger than the one that i've bought for myself but still i liked it and i appreciated him for he's thoughtfulness. He also gave me something else other than the purse, it was just a snack from bugis street and it's famous for it's traditionally made bread and of course the prata hotdog snack. Simply delicious, i still remember the first time i ate it with shawn while shopping for new year clothings during feburary. It sure brings back sweet memories when i bite into the lump of delicious snack.
He went home early today and i thought i should thank him for the stuffs that he had bought for me. So i tried calling him but he didn't answer. Perhaps he's sleeping. It's like almost 4am now.. and though i can't sleep but still i have to try. Tomorrow i have bring my granny to the nearest chinese clinic for therapy and it's really heartbreaking that her condition isn't getting any better after the countless visits to various clinics and hospital. It's really tedious .. both the journey and money... sigh.. but i have no other choice.. I'm the eldest.. so i have to do my part. The younger brother finished he's army but he's just idling at home and though i've speak to him countless of times, but he's still .... arghh .. i don't know what to do anymore. It's bad enough that our family is poor and worse still i'm like the only sole bread winner apart from the occasional help from my aunt and my uncle. If they weren't there to help .. i don't know how are we going to survive anymore..
Alright.. it's time for me to sign off now.. good night bloggie.. -cheers for ownself- Jiayou! jaime!
Why am i chosen to go through of this,
Why is everything so wrong for me,
No matter how hard i prayed , how hard i hoped,
But still, things stayed the same.
Who am i to complain when i'm not the only person suffering in this whole entire world.
It's getting darker..
My own world, my little dimension.
What am i holding to ? I can't help but wonder
But yet there's this little ray of light that's been lighting up that dark sphere which i'm trapped in
grasping onto the single thin stream of light..
But hey, it's getting dimmer almost about to disappear.
Baby, i wished that things would have stayed the same way.
This love, though cruel, but it's alluring at the same time.
Tried to give it up numerous times, but still i can't bear to give it up.
It's ridiculous at times, but yes..its the fact.
Messing around with each other's feelings..Is that the best that we both can do?
How i wished that things were always sweet and lovely..
But Alas! thoughts were thoughts after all.
I can't simply control how others might feel about me..
And i can't control their tempers either.
Now i'm on my own, fighting against my biggest enemy, Time.
Because i know that it won't stop simply for me.
3:10:00 AM
