Wednesday, February 4, 2009
♥ Finally It's Over
Tons of stuffs happened and well i was a little too lazy to really write every day .. Especially when chinese new year was around the corner.. 2oo9's chinese new year was definately one of the best chinese new year i've got so far.. Besides from regular visitations from relatives, the sumptous reunion dinner.. and of course..The amount i managed to get from all those red packets. Didn't quite think that this year's red packet money would be that much. But although it's quite alot, but still it'll end up gone because there's tons of bills i still need to settle in the household. But at least it'll lessen my burden a whole lot for this month..really thankful.
Many things happened.. So i'll do the usual thing..
1.Chinese New Year Reunion Dinner (really warm gathering this year.. Especially with my dearest granny..Definately the most important person in my whole entire life..No body can ever replaced her not even.. )
2. Chinese New Year Lao Yu Sheng with xperteleven crew at bugis.. (many many ppl..But ..overall ok)
3. Midnight Movie (UnderWorld: Rise of the Lycans) - with junie and he's girlfriend.. rather good show..Enjoyed it.
4. A whole lot more.. But i just.. cant be bothered to write that much out.. Sorry bloggie..
Just what kind of a person i am to him i really wonder at times.. I always did whatever that i was told by him.. He thinks that i purposely dont wanna help him, die die say cannot.. But i have no choice.. My boss confronted me earlier on and hes already in a bad mood.. Then buei buei asked me to help him do some stuffs in kicks online.. I said i can't because boss is around.. Cannot ..really cannot... After hanging up .. i asked my boss permission to switch on a comp to help shawn with something. My boss agrees but only for alittle while he said. Really glad i hop back to call him but he refuse to pick up my call.. Maybe hes in toilet was what i thought when he didnt pick up at the first call.. I tried calling again and logged in my msn at the same time, saw him online and msged him asking him to pick up the call and he typed " NOT FREE" ..
Hes angry..I explained to him why i said i can't help him but he still refuse to forgive me.. Maybe i'm in the wrong too.. because after getting confronted by luk once again.. how good can one feel? I just wanna stay out of trouble at the mean time since boss is getting fed up ...i got upset, really upset. And asked why is he getting so mad because of this.. It's not like i purposely refuse to help him or what.. Sigh .. Then there he go again.. Hinting me that it's over between us.. It's always like that.. and i'm really sick of it.. We have not quarrelled for quite some time.. and i thought things is finally getting pretty.. But .. thoughts were thoughts afterall...
He said i couldnt even lift a finger to help him .. But i've already explained not ??? I did tried to ask boss permission again and he agreed and i tried to amend things did i not?? why cant he just be gentleman enough and forgive me.. why is it always me that have to do the "I'm Sorry" .. always me.. Like i'm the only one in the wrong.. He said that don't expect him to do anything for me from now on.. I asked him not to worry .. there wont be a next time nemore.. ..
"Good for you" was what he said.. Yea.. He's right.. Perhaps it's best for me.. and the best for him too.
Strange enough .. Though deep inside i seemed to be torned apart.. But .. i feel somewhat.. relieved..
Can't stop it from happening..
perhaps its really the end..
Perhaps the best ending..
Hopes were hopes afterall..
The fact still remains..
And like always..
The Truth always hurts.
4:57:00 PM
