Sunday, January 4, 2009

*spanks Bloggie* Hey how have you been? .. You know .. I really don't know why .. But lately i kind of feel uneasy about everything that's happening around me.. Don't come asking me why .. Because i myself, I'm not really sure too.. It's just this weird feeling... arghh.. @_@ ..

Anyway, I was nearly late for work today .. I woke up and it's already 1.50pm.. GG.. i didnt even get to bathe and i just get myself a change of clothes and rushed out of the house to the MRT and .. well, i was late.. for like 5 minutes? i don't know .. But i rushed like mad and end up perspiring alot when i reach my work place. Well, again.. I got told off by my boss luk that i should stop being so fierce to customers.. which i havent been ever since he kind of confronted me that day .. I don't know who's trying to make things difficult for me.. But ever since that day luk told me about my working attitude.. I've already changed.. and sigh.. never mind.. Perhaps they still hold grudges.. and won't stop till i'm finally out of the job.. but anyway.. i asked for it .. so .. i've no right to like.. complain ? .. But still i'm sad.. and a little afraid.. it's not like there are no other jobs that i can look for if i'm out of this but .. It's the only job that can let me really stay close to buei buei .. so yea .. = =" .. Whatever is gonna happen, i don't really forward to it.. because i know .. soon things will turn ugly .. and .. of course.. i wont make things difficult for luk since he said that it's starting to affect he's business and people won't come because i got a little too fierce with them.. Now.. the thing is.. how am i going to get those people back to azure? ... T_T .. Aww.. stupid me.. now i think of it.. I'm really at the fault huh .. Luk probably tolerated it for a very long time .. till he can no longer stand it.. seeing that he's business is gonna ruin in my hands.. I'm sorry .. But what can i do.. I can only hope that the custoemrs will kind of forgive my attitude and come back to play.. Although i did my part by cleaning and everything like topping up drinks and restocking.. i guess customer service is still the most important part.. because it's the customers that will be paying me .. I'll just do what my buei buei taught me to do .. To not bother.. and to learn how to nag.. T_T .. Arghh .. Headache .. @_@ ...

Got home today at 12.23am and tried to call buei buei to tell him that i've reached home incase he's worried about me.. but .. i guess he's phone is dead or something.. Because i just can't call through.. I hope he'll go home later on.. because .. i simply don't want and can't bear to know that he's skin irritation problem is going to affect him again. T_T .. Really Heart Pain... and the worse thing is .. i cant do anything about it.. Even though i clean up the room like every 2 days.. But .. sigh .. T_T .. its still not helping isn't it.. He's skin is really soo sensitive.. well mine too .. But i cant be bothered about myself.. x=

SUPER BROKE.. i even had to make buei buei buy me dinner and borrowed 30 bucks from him for this month .. because i kind of spend a little too much on christmas presents.. and besides.. i had to clear that stupid debt that my uncle owed to singtel.. It's not that i had to clear it.. But he's using my youngest brother's name to get that line .. so yea.. I gave almost half of my income to my granny this month .. end up i'm simply broke right now .. l0lss.. T_T ..but my pay will come soon .. sooo no worries.. Arghhh things are making me crazy ... alot of stuffs is happening to my family.. but thankfully my buei buei is there.. to make me feel comfortable and .. things will definately get really ugly if i'm single and alone right at this moment. 2009 is definately going to be tough for me.. Since my granny's health is really not that good at the moment and plus my brothers and uncles stuff.. ARGHH MAKING ME CRAZY .. The only thing that is able to comfort me is the thought that my buei buei is somewhere out there missing me and thinking of me..

Alright i'm really tired bloggie so i'll just stop now.. talk to you like tomorrow or something?? #_# .. no promises though.. *kisses bloggie* oyasumi =)