Saturday, January 10, 2009
♥ =)
Lalala! i'm here again bloggie! *pats bloggie* how have you been ? o= .. Anyway .. Recently my body is feeling way too awful .. Frequent headaches.. and aching pains in my back.. Sigh .. T_T .. It's really a torture.. ): .. I slept like a pig again yesterday .. which is my off day .. When i woke up it's already 4pm++ and i received a call from my buei buei ... Wanted to force myself out of bed.. But was way too tired and my head hurts damn lot.. wanted to rest for abit before i get up and end up sleeping again.. Till 5.30pm i woke up and took a bath and it was 6.25pm when i finished everything and was about to go out from home to my buei buei's place when he suddenly called and told me that he's going out.. I was surprised and of course asked him where he's going. He just said he's going out.. and i told him i'm done and i'm going over to he's place now.. He seemed sad and said that it's late already.. And he's mother is coming home any moment. I reassure him that i'll be there as soon as possible and then he sighed and said ok. Relieved , i rushed out of house and took a cab over to he's place. Really feel sorry about it. He must have been waiting for me since early afternoon.. But .. i actually .. I'm sorry about it.. really .. I didn't do it on purpose though.. It's just those awful headaches that i'm having and those unbearable pain.. ARghh.. driving me nuts.
He's mother seemed to be slowly changing her impression of me.. and i'm really happy .. She even offered me to watch a set of dvd that she have .. And because i rarely have time to watch it and don't really understand cantonese.. I returned the dvd to her. I feel kinda bad about it.. But .. i hope she's not mad or anything.. Then we left he's house and head over to thomson Prata House to have our late dinner.. and i've never been there before and i was bewildered because the prata and food there were simply too deliciouss.. I've never taste any prata that crispy before seriously.. Definately an enjoyable meal.. though we both ate a little too much and suffered from stomach cramps.. lolss. how silly we both are.. always ordering a little too much for us to consume.. But as long as we enjoyed the food.. It's all worth it i guess .!
Head over to my workplace as soon as we finished our meal and i slept for like 2 hrs again.. Serves me right for watching Sotong [Brando] playing Left 4 Dead and end up having headaches again.. So i slept for abit and when i woke up it's already almost 2am. Played a couple rounds of dota and buei buei sent me home. It was cold on the way home again and i'm thankful that buei buei brought along he's windbreaker again.. But i feel bad.. Because he's not wearing any clothes that will keep him warm.. So again i tried to rub he's' arms hoping that he will feel better. Really pains him to see him shivering that much from the back.
This months gonna be a tough month for me.. Loads of problems i had to deal with within the family household. But i believe i will pull through just like how i managed to for the past few months. I'm really determined to quit the habit of smoking.. Because .. It's really starting to pressure me.. Just like what my buei buei says..
1. Smoking Causes Bad breath
2.Smoking Is the Cause of yellowish Teeth
3.Ciggerettes are expensive.
4.Smoking Harms Health
5.Smoking Doesnt look good one bit.. especially for girls..
Sigh .. It's getting late.. But i can't help being worried.. About my granny's health condition.. I really cant Imagine .. what will happen .. if.. I don't know .. and i cant bear to think about it.. though i know .. I have to face it sooner or later.. But .. I just don't know.. Sometimes i really wish to spend more time with her.. But i've gotta work .. and i just hope taht my brothers will be sensible enough and help her do the household chores when i'm not around and take better care of her. She looked after the three of us ever since our mom left us when i was merely 5 yrs old.. and my brothers.. 3 and 1 .. shes done her job now that all of us are grown ups already .. But it's so hard for me to find time to really sit down and speak to my brothers because by the time i got home from work each day they're already asleep and sometimes.. they were not even back. Thankful that my buei buei is there for me each and everyday .. and sometimes i really feel that i'm stupid and terrible throwing tantrums around when he's done nothing wrong.. It's wrong for me to do that i know.. But all these things bottling inside of me.. i'm really gonna explode soon.. suffocating.. and yet i can always feel at ease whenever he's around .. and he's presense often made me not to think about those problems. Really thankful that he's around for me.
IT's getting late.. i ought to be sleeping.. If not i'll end up like a zombie again tomorrow.. Good night bloggie.. May GOD bless my family members and my buei buei and he's family member always. As long as they're fine.. whatever i'm going through now is all worth it. *kisses bloggie*
A mixture of negative feelings hiding within me,
Yet i feel at ease whenever your beside me,
coaxing me, doting on me,
And yet sometimes i chose to be defiant and taking things for granted,
showing you things that you do not wish to see,
But i just wanna let you know that,
I'm really thankful and glad..
That though i often made you angry,
Your still standing right beside me..
No doubt the only ray of light thats shining upon me..
The fact that i'll soon be vanishing, But i believe ..
You'll still shine somewhere within a part of me..
He's mother seemed to be slowly changing her impression of me.. and i'm really happy .. She even offered me to watch a set of dvd that she have .. And because i rarely have time to watch it and don't really understand cantonese.. I returned the dvd to her. I feel kinda bad about it.. But .. i hope she's not mad or anything.. Then we left he's house and head over to thomson Prata House to have our late dinner.. and i've never been there before and i was bewildered because the prata and food there were simply too deliciouss.. I've never taste any prata that crispy before seriously.. Definately an enjoyable meal.. though we both ate a little too much and suffered from stomach cramps.. lolss. how silly we both are.. always ordering a little too much for us to consume.. But as long as we enjoyed the food.. It's all worth it i guess .!
Head over to my workplace as soon as we finished our meal and i slept for like 2 hrs again.. Serves me right for watching Sotong [Brando] playing Left 4 Dead and end up having headaches again.. So i slept for abit and when i woke up it's already almost 2am. Played a couple rounds of dota and buei buei sent me home. It was cold on the way home again and i'm thankful that buei buei brought along he's windbreaker again.. But i feel bad.. Because he's not wearing any clothes that will keep him warm.. So again i tried to rub he's' arms hoping that he will feel better. Really pains him to see him shivering that much from the back.
This months gonna be a tough month for me.. Loads of problems i had to deal with within the family household. But i believe i will pull through just like how i managed to for the past few months. I'm really determined to quit the habit of smoking.. Because .. It's really starting to pressure me.. Just like what my buei buei says..
1. Smoking Causes Bad breath
2.Smoking Is the Cause of yellowish Teeth
3.Ciggerettes are expensive.
4.Smoking Harms Health
5.Smoking Doesnt look good one bit.. especially for girls..
Sigh .. It's getting late.. But i can't help being worried.. About my granny's health condition.. I really cant Imagine .. what will happen .. if.. I don't know .. and i cant bear to think about it.. though i know .. I have to face it sooner or later.. But .. I just don't know.. Sometimes i really wish to spend more time with her.. But i've gotta work .. and i just hope taht my brothers will be sensible enough and help her do the household chores when i'm not around and take better care of her. She looked after the three of us ever since our mom left us when i was merely 5 yrs old.. and my brothers.. 3 and 1 .. shes done her job now that all of us are grown ups already .. But it's so hard for me to find time to really sit down and speak to my brothers because by the time i got home from work each day they're already asleep and sometimes.. they were not even back. Thankful that my buei buei is there for me each and everyday .. and sometimes i really feel that i'm stupid and terrible throwing tantrums around when he's done nothing wrong.. It's wrong for me to do that i know.. But all these things bottling inside of me.. i'm really gonna explode soon.. suffocating.. and yet i can always feel at ease whenever he's around .. and he's presense often made me not to think about those problems. Really thankful that he's around for me.
IT's getting late.. i ought to be sleeping.. If not i'll end up like a zombie again tomorrow.. Good night bloggie.. May GOD bless my family members and my buei buei and he's family member always. As long as they're fine.. whatever i'm going through now is all worth it. *kisses bloggie*
A mixture of negative feelings hiding within me,
Yet i feel at ease whenever your beside me,
coaxing me, doting on me,
And yet sometimes i chose to be defiant and taking things for granted,
showing you things that you do not wish to see,
But i just wanna let you know that,
I'm really thankful and glad..
That though i often made you angry,
Your still standing right beside me..
No doubt the only ray of light thats shining upon me..
The fact that i'll soon be vanishing, But i believe ..
You'll still shine somewhere within a part of me..
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