Friday, October 3, 2008

Have someone other than your own parents cut your nails before? O: Not mine tho, but my granny did.. and yesterday, someone other than my granny did it for me and it touched me really deep inside. Nails are dirty, and he's a person who really dislike unhygenic stuffs. But to think he even cut my toe nails for me! Totally speechless, perhaps i'm being naive but just by this action of his alone i can confirm that there's a secure place for me in he's heart. A drop of tear slipped past my eye no matter how hard i've tried to control it. Even if i was to die or end of this world is gonna be the next day, it's all worth it. Never ever felt so loved before, Never ever felt so cherished before. I really thank The one above for giving me this priceless gift before i finally retire and go back to where i came from. (:

Yup! Yesterday's My offday x: Haha and i barely slept. I've tried to sleep, But i just can't ): Maybe it's the pricking pain but well, I managed to fall asleep after awhile. I don' t know why, but i'm just not used to sleeping at some other places other then my home alone. Was still not feeling really well after waking up but still we headed to Bugis for DotA! d: You can say i'm crazy, but i can tolerate almost every pain .. and any single thing thats stopping me from being together with him. Ate macdonalds and suffered terrible chest pain after eating that damn-ed icecream! D: Serves me right for acting tough and being too "Tan -Chi" .X: I loved ice cream, But i always had to try to stay away from it because it causes chest pain. I had to stay away from freezing stuffs and salty stuffs but i don't even care. Since it's my life and it's not gonna be long, I might as well do and enjoy all the stuffs that i loved. And weee~ DotA time! Hoho played a few games.. Won almost every match but the last one. But it was definately a learning experience for me. Improved abit on the Hero Lion and believe me.. it's IRITTATING! l0lss. x: I felt bad myself when i used it on others. I wouldn't want ppl to keep stunning me and sucking my mana dry ): I'll hate him! D: The worse thing is, After stunning and realised that it's got insufficient mana to ulti, sucked my mana and used MY MANA TO FINGER ME! That's like WTF isn't it? :D My standard compared to Shawn is equivalent to nothing. He's much stronger and the rate of he's farming.. Omg.. I dunno what to say! It's monsterlike = =" When will i improve and be able to do everything exactly like him. It already took 5 years and i'm still at this standard. I'm stupid = ="

Anyway he sent me home after the shop closed and he went off ahead to Azure again. I thought it's 24hrs seriously that bugis shop. x: hoho ^_^

One thing that's really bothering me. I feel really bad.. that i'm the main reason why he's always quarrelling with he's family. Though he doesn't speak a single word about it because he doesn't want me to feel upset and feel bad about it. But i know.. and i wished i could help. Sigh.. The physical pain i'm suffering now is nothing compared to what i'm feeling deep inside of me.. Obstacles preventing us from being together and the one big obstacle is no doubt he's parents. If he falls out with he's family because of me i'll definately HATE myself. I have to do something.. soon.. And it will either help .. Or it'll be the key to the end of my one and only world.