Wednesday, September 3, 2008
♥ 终于理解...
Remembered when it first happened, I couldnt even sleep peacefully for the first few nights. Closing my eyes is not good at all because images of him kept appearing to me whenever i'm alone. Went for night walks alone in the dark and eerie park near my house hoping that i'll get tired and eventually fall asleep. But to no avail, I wasn't getting tired at all, Infact things felt even worse. Recalling all those memories that we once had, tears streamed down unknowingly. Trying hard not to think but yet i can't stop myself. How useless and silly can one be?
Till yesterday, I started to feel a little better. Reading my diary all over again from the day that i first knew him, I came to realise that i'm not that important to him anyway. A person who loves you doesn't insult you, doesn't force you to do stuffs that you don't wanna do and most importantly, a person that loves you WILL accept you for who you are. They won't make unreasonable demands asking you to do stuffs that your not even used to.
Since i finally understand what i'm worth to him, its no use broading it over and over again. It's time to let go. Memories will be buried deep inside a corner of my shatter-ed heart. No longer craving for love nemore, Cause when it comes, i'll most probably be blinded by it again.
现在想起来 ,我也真够愚蠢.明知道付出 得越多, 自己就会陷得更深. 尽管如此, 我还是把我自己推入无底洞.. 真是自作自受.. 怪不了其他人, 因为我明知故犯..
好累..好累.. 做人为什么那么累啊.. 以后我不会再让任何一个人轻易得闯进我的圈圈里..
3:37:00 PM
